Spring Rox

It is entirely too beautiful outside to be stuck inside moping around. I got my Taxes done today. I'm pretty excited about that. I have a ton of things to get complete on my to do list I really need to buckle down and get them done! I'm very excited today is Opening Day in Baseball. My team isn't playing, however it's always exciting when things start anew, fresh. Why is it when the sun is out, it distracts you from doing the necessary things in your life. For instance cleaning your room or cleaning out your truck?

I miss the bright, sunny days of spring when I could meticulously take care of my backyard by gardening, mowing the lawn, hanging out with my once loved Dog; life was good. These days there aren't any lawns to mow, any flowers to fertilize, any patio to sweep. I really miss those small intricate details of life. Here's to cleaning out the truck today.... Whoo hoo!

The best beginnings of our lives
May sometimes end in sorrow
But even on our darkest days
The sun will shine tomorrow.

So we must do our very best
Whatever life may bring
And look beyond the winter chill
To smell the breath of spring.

Into each life will always come
A time to start anew
A new beginning for each heart
As fresh as morning dew.

B. McClain

2:50 A.M.

Inspiration can be edgy sometimes

I met Nick through my roommate Brendan a few years back while he was living in San Ramon. At first i thought this kid was the craziest, not giving a care, ruthless teenager I had ever met. Through the years I got to know Nick a bit and realized this guy is, in my language "legit".

Nick's one of a kind. Dresses to the beat of his own drum and a style all his own. He's very eccentric and in my mind on another level. If you see him in a "DangerZone" episode you'll recognize how off the wall Sick Nikki Fresh is. I'm pretty impressed with Nick and his Open Faith with people around him. That's always pumped me up. He can be such a popular dude on the Skateboard/Snowboard scene and still stick to his true alliance with Jesus Christ.

It's cool to me when people that get really big and popular remember where they came from and can stay grounded like Nikki has. That's inspiration to me in a bit of a nutshell. We all inspire people in different ways, some people more than others. It's finding the inspiration that you can use to better your soul that's most important to me.

I kinda like Drips

Today

Greet your elders with a smile today
Work on developing your soul today
Laugh with someone that could use it today
Canvas your thoughts into a dream today
Forgive a hardened, uncivil heart today
Be inspired by a friends beauty today
Remember that your purpose is all your own today
Listen to your heart beat today
See elegance in every direction you look today
Remember that life is a creation today
Make your life special today


JR 3/29

Sometimes you CAN make it on your own

These are what I call trinket paintings. 8 inch by 8 inch. Just enough canvas to get the word out.

RUST
I spoke with you today
the predicament at hand will not extinguish the hurt
the composure of the setting is fresh
like a blade of wet grass in the garden
sentence after sentence the relationship builds into a conversation
likes and dislikes are created as a form of dignity and remembrance.
I want our memory to last longer than a wooden box of handwritten letters.
Give me that one chance to reveal my true inner most feeling for you.
As we walk hand in hand through our lifetime we hold on to what is true
Don't let your LOVE rust away, as together we extinguish the pain that we call hurt.

J.R. 3/25

New Times for Detailed

What I'm working on Today

Poetry inspiration


Have a Wonderful Wednesday Everyone.

Kindness

Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel your life get handed to you as it were ending in a quick abyss
What you worked so hard for, strive for, loved for
what you gave every ounce of your heart so graciously
all this must go
so you know you may finally realize in your heart
the true definition and spectrum
of kindness.

Before you learn the entire spectrum of kindness,
you must live in a battlefield of angst and pretentious living
You must see how this could affect you,
how your life was being affected by a long journey
of lies and incomplete dreams.

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice from inside cries effervescently
and then makes the light arrive when your soul begins to sing.

Then it is only kindness that is the only thing you need in your life
only kindness that makes the day feel so much more brighter
Kindness is what I've been looking for, kindness is what I've missed.


JR 3/22

Skype Date

PLUS



(HAPPY)NESS

Birthdays staying Fun even in the situation

March 9th.

A day that comes with mixed emotions every year. I go into the month of March always pumped to celebrate the day and party with happiness entailed. For some reason though it never happens. I think I blow it up, epic style with the days leading up to my birthday week and for some reason all of the planning for the week goes away silently. I can't complain though. This year I had a great time with friends and family on numerous days within the week. Maybe it's because I'm a huge fan of the celebration of the day... I really don't know. I love my visit from my friend Savannah on Sunday and Monday. It was really great to see her and catch up on her new life in the Pacific Northwest. My bi weekly call to my friends in SoCal was amazing while in addition I received a video text from my friend Saley with his son rocking out to Mumford and Sons. My friends at the Wine Bar and Patrick Davids made the week very inviting with cards and great fellowship. My family made the tail end of birthday week so much fun with a dinner including cheesesteaks and ice cream cake with mint chip ice cream (my favorite). The thing is I look forward to these small celebrations from time to time because I need that happiness. I've looked forward to this week for a while. I still feel bummed out a bit after the week ended. It could have been the text message from my Dad on the 8th (not my birthday) or the effects from my heart wrenching, ongoing divorce that I am in. I really don't know. But, I take every day with a smile. I try to at least. I guess until next year. Here's to you March 9th. I really do like you... Even in the current situation.

PJ time with my favorite

What makes a birthday great?

Much needed Smiles from Me

Fellowship with Family

Ice Cream Cake with Squiggly Candles

Birthday Cards

CheeseSteaks With the Family

Assistance from my buddy

Silly Faces

Smiling Faces

"Do I really have to do this" Faces

Faces that I love

I want to be lost again

Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
It's been an awful long time
my heart needed time to heal.
If its only for a few moments
I thank you for the time spent.
I want to be lost again.
Courage.
Desire.
Integrity.
Compassion.
Love.

J.R.
3/7/11

Exhaustion

Sleep
Sleep tonight
And may your dreams
Be realized

If the thunder cloud
Passes rain
So let it rain
Rain down on him

Mmm, mmm, mmm
So let it be
Mmm, mmm, mmm
So let it be

Sleep
Sleep tonight
And may your dreams
Be realized

If the thunder cloud
Passes rain
So let it rain, let it rain
Rain on him

balance

Drip Drop, Drip Drop

the sun sweating its wrought.

Middle ground brings peace and balance

the same balance that a key few turn down.

The days twist and turn throughout the rolling hills called life.

Balance is refreshing.

Fresh, alive, clean.

Bringing a worn down enigma new life.

Stitching anew as the sun meets the sea

This balance that we all search for

begin the cycle of living once again.

J.R. 3/3/11

Living while Learning

I just want PEACE

It's sometimes strange that I think about peace within relationships. I mean we all want to have peaceful relationships right? Is it me, or do things happen in three's and fours everywhere. This week is entirely way to difficult for me to fathom without a peaceful heart. Its a big week. My heart has had time to heal and build again. Here's the thing. It is very difficult for me to reach out completely and have Peace when I know deep down inside it will never be reciprocated. I have turned the page enough so that my relationships that were torn during this process can go back to the way that should always have been. Thank you for your support in rebuilding my structure. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for helping make me feel at home, when it feels so far away from reality. I will always try and do the best thing in all circumstances for anyone around me and in this instance I feel that everyone involved in this will be at peace eventually. It is my FATHER that helps me get through each day a changed man. March 3 you will come and go. The Pain will be sharp and hurtful, but through YOU all things are possible....



"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone."