Are you happy? Just a question between friends. I for sure know that I am not. Questioning where to head post 30 is killing me. I don't think I've worked this hard in my life. Work all the time and not keeping my head above water. My graduate work, my credentialed work, my life is turning into a disappointment. All I've wanted to prove to myself is am I making a difference... For the students and am I pushing myself to further my life. I'm all over the place right now. I just wish life would turn around. God knew I was heading this way a while ago. I didn't. I need to figure a way to live a semi charmed type of life. And that means a lot more nacho libre outfits and less stressing over failed attempts. I try my best in life. Sometimes I suck as a friend, brother, son, co worker, roommate, etc...... but I'm working toward a better Jonathan. I know that when I paint I feel a new me. Revitalization.
