I came across my Rob Bell book Drops likes Stars last night as I was getting ready for bed and I had some emotion pour out. This weekend will be tough for me. A lot tougher than I thought it would be. I perceived the week as a good one. Starting to gain some positiveness towards life again, while gaining the time to hang with the people that I love at the same time. As I was reading the book I came across a section of the book that talks about suffering and the feelings that are attached with losing the ones you love. I know it will be hard for a while. Really, Really difficult. But as I hit this Fathers Day 2010, I have no one really to celebrate it with. That may be selfish of me, and I'm truly sorry; however from having being able to celebrate Fathers day since I could remember, and again Circa 2002, this year will be trivial. So what do I do......... I couldn't think of an answer to get my spirits up, so i began painting. Before I began to paint, I took my scissors out and began to cut my book. Some things that I had a hard time dealing with for the past year. After destruction there is creation. Well I think so at least. So I began to create. And create I did. And will do.
