Eye on the Prize

How are you doing? I'm sorry for being distant for a bit. I was just taking some time tonight to think about how thankful I am for my life and what completes it. I have a Chronic disease in which I will eventually fall victim to. It's a daily reminder to me that I have to take each day and treat it like it will be my last. I almost lost my life when I was thirteen. It is also a keen reminder that I need to love my life for what it's worth. My life has been pretty Sucky for a few years ending in my unfortunate separation from the only girl that I ever have truly cared for in my up and down life. It all comes to a head this week as I need to travel to Martinez and sit in front of a judge and argue dollars and sense. I've never been a fan of arguments as most people know. Arguing destroys relationships. It destroys healthy communication that is dire for people to grow within a community. I am very lucky that I have a healthy community of friends around me that can be there for me to talk life, push me towards the positive things that can make my life stronger than it has been and will hopefully be. Wednesday will most doubtingly be the toughest day in my life for quite a long time. It may be the last time that I see my former "everything" face to face. You never know how things will go after this. My heart still bleeds for us. It is now that I see that I need to fight my way through this quite the same way as I have taken other difficult obstacles in my life. I thank you for being there for me this past year. Each and everyone that I know I am thankful for you. You make me smile, which is very crucial as I enter this next step in my life. Thank You.