Turmoil within a week.

 

Never before have I had something hit me this hard

in which I could have prevented it. Exhaustion has been

building and building until finally it broke.

I push myself to be the best Jonathan that I can

be, yet sometimes I do too much. Friday night I had a wonderful 

time at dinner and the Wizard of Oz Musical. It was amazing.

We had a great time! Great, Great, Great Time! 

Then comes Saturday Morning.... 

I'm rushed to the ER in Walnut Creek.

I wasn't feeling too well, and I'm not sure why.

Come to find out my blood sugar had taken a turn for the worse.

My insulin pump was not working, therefore my medicine was not

breaking down the sugars in my body. This sent my body into Ketoacidocis. Something that any Diabetic is fearful of

losing their life to. Average Sugar levels for me is 110-160. That's perfect range for myself. Anything higher or lower could hurt my

long term outcome. When I checked into the ER, my sugars were run at 1200. That number alone sends chills into my body. It's been a long week with amazing help from my family, friends, and my work's understanding. I need to find a medium to make my life not as stressful as it is. Take a bit off so that I'm not hurting myself and the others that are in my life around me. As I type this, I still am weak, recovering from this freakish occurrence that happened last week. I'm thinking of what I can do to repay the people around me that were there for me when I most needed them. This week was a difficult one. I'm thankful for the loved ones around me. Without you.... I wouldn't be here.

Thanks.

 

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I know that things are broken
I know there’s too many words left unsaid
You say you have spoken, like the coward I am, I hang my head
You lay careless, your head on my chest
And don’t even look at me looking my best

And all these things I can’t describe, you would rather I didn’t try
But please, don’t cry you liar
Oh please, don’t cry you liar
Oh please, don’t cry you liar
Oh please, don’t cry you liar
Oh please, don’t cry you liar
Oh this love I have found, I detest

Perserverance

 

 

 

“A cousin is a ready-made friend for life.”

Remembering

You know today was a tough one. For a number of reasons. School was terrible, albeit the students know there are only 17 days left of school and you do the math.That is why today started off disappointing. Sometimes the internet via email, text messages, facebook can all add to a culmination of Suckiness if you glance at it during the day at the wrong moment. It can just throw you off of your planned outlook. Day's however can start off terrible and then meander into a brighter situation. Say for instance receiving my Federal Tax Return upon arriving home in the mail. It was comforting to see that things come at the right time to cheer me up. Like a phone call tonight. My grin was so giddy and childish when I saw the call. Really childish to say..... but I needed that smile. Kinda like in this video. I could watch this all day, it makes me feel good to smile. I hope that you can have a great day that makes your heart feel content and fulfilling. That's what we need to live for. Happiness, Love, a life free of stress, and more smiles. YES, a lot more Smiles.