Rejuvenation

Just what I Needed

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE.

Home is whenever I'm with you.

My frail body  seeks finalization.

Can it ever have a break from the 

continuous bad luck ride? Seems as if life

never can work out for the best.Hands down

my August and September have been the best two

months in about two years.

Plus Points.

Awesome new 3rd Grade Job

Freedom to pursue other key part time jobs

Met some new people, including some ones that i really like

Pretty much September was rocking, going along

great... until last week. Insert Diabetes Type 1. 

There always has to be a sensor or something that 

pops up in my life that when my life is so happy

it decides to screw everything up. I always want

to please everyone in my life. Family wise, work wise,

friend wise. I tried to please too many lately.

Now to square one.

Finding out how to make my life accessible to work,

family, friends, without overdoing myself.Having 

You in my life has helped a lot lately, I just wanted

You to know. A great addition to help me with my stride.

Thank You.

On the road to recovery...

Turmoil within a week.

 

Never before have I had something hit me this hard

in which I could have prevented it. Exhaustion has been

building and building until finally it broke.

I push myself to be the best Jonathan that I can

be, yet sometimes I do too much. Friday night I had a wonderful 

time at dinner and the Wizard of Oz Musical. It was amazing.

We had a great time! Great, Great, Great Time! 

Then comes Saturday Morning.... 

I'm rushed to the ER in Walnut Creek.

I wasn't feeling too well, and I'm not sure why.

Come to find out my blood sugar had taken a turn for the worse.

My insulin pump was not working, therefore my medicine was not

breaking down the sugars in my body. This sent my body into Ketoacidocis. Something that any Diabetic is fearful of

losing their life to. Average Sugar levels for me is 110-160. That's perfect range for myself. Anything higher or lower could hurt my

long term outcome. When I checked into the ER, my sugars were run at 1200. That number alone sends chills into my body. It's been a long week with amazing help from my family, friends, and my work's understanding. I need to find a medium to make my life not as stressful as it is. Take a bit off so that I'm not hurting myself and the others that are in my life around me. As I type this, I still am weak, recovering from this freakish occurrence that happened last week. I'm thinking of what I can do to repay the people around me that were there for me when I most needed them. This week was a difficult one. I'm thankful for the loved ones around me. Without you.... I wouldn't be here.

Thanks.

 

Smiles

Well look what we have here.....

I love getting notes on my truck

signed by a heart. It looks

like Mr. Ruff might have

a secret admirer. Now, I

need to find out who it is.

Hmmmmm......... 

Lost for so Long

I have seen your Grace
so lost for so long now
Simplicity of Grace calls
for celebration in my heart
Because I gave up somewhere
A face I've forgotten now
I am free. To give you my heart.
Today light penetrates my dark shadows
I see myself in you and it brings a smitten view
And I want you hand in hand to cross paths
left, right, over, under
so lost for so long now
What is love without You.......


J.R. 9/8

I am In Love.......

Ruby Adelia

You slay my heart.

You are still so young

but the happiness you bring

your uncle Johnny

is indescribable.

Do me a favor and never

grow up. I love you

So, So much.

Uncle Johnny



Attitude

There are certain things in life that just get old in life. 

I'm not talking about food, or stinky trash, or even torn clothes. Emotions, lifestyles, choices, attitudes. These things tend to get old after a while. I want to move on and figure out what is out there for me on an emotional level. I'll be the first to tell you that I made some really immature decisions in my long life. Now is the time to make up for them all. In my head, things are coming together as much as I can ponder. My attitude is at an all time high. Choices are made with a wiser head. Finding someone

with a heart of gold and bruises the same as me is doubtful, but feasible. Somewhere close there is an answer to a peaceful life. And that makes me happy today. Happiness makes the heart grow fonder.

why don't we take off alone
Take a trip somewhere far, far away
We'll be together all alone again
Like we used to in the early days
Well, well, well darling

It's been too long since we took the time
No-one's to blame, I know time flies so quickly
But when I see you darling
It's like we both are falling in love again
It'll be just like starting over, starting over

Our life together is so precious together
We have grown, we have grown
Although our love is still special
Let's take a chance and fly away somewhere

Starting over

John Lennon

Yum Yum

duck confit steamed buns

Picazo Cabernet 2007

Guinness gelatto

and.... The Notebook.

Did I just admit that? Is it alright that I watched only half of it?

:)

Smitten.

 

It's 1:31 in the am and I am full of butterflies. Life is good. I'm happy most days. My relationships are great. Meeting new people that have made me smitten all over again. My art as feeble as it comes, is making me take a second look as to where it might be headed. What first started out as a bucket to drown my tears in, I feel that it has matured into something new and creative. I was reminded this last week that I have a wonderful name. Jonathan. Gift of God. I stopped having people call me that because Jon just seemed so much easier. So these butterflies are making my life entirely too positive. I have good days and bad days. But the potential to make these good days great are very positive. Those speed bumps come along and they really sting at times. But in my life, I feel there is always something around the corner. I'm smitten at the possibilities in life. As I try to keep my eyes open at this hour, I think to myself of what a great life I have. My core. Friends, family, jobs.... they keep me going, and its just those opportunities that make me who I am today. Because of You.