Forever

Forever. A word that I've wanted for so long. I've wanted a full time
Teaching position for a long time and now that I have my 3rd grade class
I want it to last Forever. Solid friends that are with you through the
Thick and thin. I want our relationship to last forever. My life, as
Tattered and worn down it feels sometimes I wish it could last forever.
As I try to sleep tonight, this word keeps dwelling in my thoughts.
Forever let me down before. Or maybe I let down Forever. It's something
That I think about everyday. Why did I screw up? Why did I let everyone
Down? I truly think that in the future I will make a mends with forever.
I am sure that my heart is ready for forever, even though it was spit out
So quickly back in the day that I didn't understand why the crack began to
Split so aimlessly. My heart is ready for forever. Maybe it wants more than
It needs, but I know I was never able to feel forever truly before.
I'm not usually the jealous type other than my siblings and my close friends.
Coming to SoCal this weekend makes me very jealous of living with, kissing
With, fraternizing with, and being with forever. Right behind my shoulder
is forever. Does this sound weird to some? Well it's something I've wanted
For a while, but have never taken the time to think it out. Her heart is so
amazing. Last thought of the night before going to bed is sleeping right over
There. Church will be so fun tomorrow :)