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Are you happy? Just a question between friends. I for sure know that I am not. Questioning where to head post 30 is killing me. I don't think I've worked this hard in my life. Work all the time and not keeping my head above water. My graduate work, my credentialed work, my life is turning into a disappointment. All I've wanted to prove to myself is am I making a difference... For the students and am I pushing myself to further my life. I'm all over the place right now. I just wish life would turn around. God knew I was heading this way a while ago. I didn't. I need to figure a way to live a semi charmed type of life. And that means a lot more nacho libre outfits and less stressing over failed attempts. I try my best in life. Sometimes I suck as a friend, brother, son, co worker, roommate, etc...... but I'm working toward a better Jonathan. I know that when I paint I feel a new me. Revitalization.

Happy Halloween

Halloween has always been a hit or miss holiday for me throughout my life.

When I was young we were unable to celebrate the fun time of trick or treating and dressing up because I remember being told that it was the devils holiday. I really didn't understand what


that meant because I was so young, I

just wanted to dress up and get candy. My sister Susannah and I used to plop ourselves on the couch in front of the living room window and watch kids walk up to our front door, just to be shoo'd off by an unanswered door.

Upon moving to CA, my parents softened their stance a bit and let us trick or treat locally. Maybe this memory is why I enjoy dressing up every once and a while for fun.

Better yet my siblings have been equally involved in the costume rumpus. I think it let's you get out some hidden laughter once or twice, or maybe even more while you have some fun.

This year I don't think I will have time to participate with work and all, however here's to a great Halloween 2010 and all of the great costumes out there.