Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I... that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need... I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can you hear me when I Sing,
you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

Mom this one's for YOU

Great Song. Amy Grant was one of the first Christian music artists that I listened
to as I began my entry into the world of music. I am going to try and make this painting
look nice. Hopefully, I can portray the vision I'm striving for that God's Grace is
very prevalent in my life and the others that support me in all ways. I'm really tired right now.... however, I will follow up on this post a little later on with a finished product.
Goodnight everyone.

Oh I've missed you.

It's been hard missing special items that I own. In the past I have referred to some in this post. However, this past weekend I was able to retrieve some of these items and a little piece of me was able to return back to normal. Today was my day off and I was looking forward to getting this put all back together. I might sound a little nerdy, but I enjoy the wiring and electronic part of setting up my surround sound system. It sounds great after all these months away from its rightful owner. I hung my painting Devotion behind the TV to add a little flair to the room. Let me know when you all want to have "movie night" so I can warn my neighbors in advance. All I am asking is that you bring the popcorn.

Acts 1:8

I
will
go
anywhere
with
anyone
to
share
God’s
love.

I missed Church today
I always feel a little piece of me suffers from the miss
I grew up unsure about the lessons from My Church
I sometimes asked myself why I did things that later I questioned
I enjoy the refreshment of Praise
I sing (albeit may not sound too well sometime)
I Worship
I Devote my life to my FATHER
I love when my week starts out with that positive feeling
I wish that everyday was a Sunday
I missed Church today

Curious

Does anyone read this blog? Not that I am afraid that anyone is not reading this amazing blog, however I am curious about the traffic that runs through this blog. I have been very inspired about people that read this scribble scrabble that I type into my keyboard. If you read this once a month or daily, can you let me know by leaving a comment about your thoughts on my writing. If you like it, don't like it, think it's boring, have a suggestion, etc.... Thanks for stopping in and I appreciate you!

Things that I Don't Like

i don't like sour cream. i don't like country music. i don't like swearing. i don't like being told that I'm moody. i don't like mayonnaise. i don't like divorce. i don't like being questioned about work ethic. i don't like that I never get to see the Hensel's. i don't like that I never have the appropriate money to tithe. i don't like that I always eat out. i don't like that it has been 5 months since I had my last haircut. i don't like carrot raisin salad. i don't like that i won't see U2 in concert until next summer. i don't like that my softball team is short 4 players tonight. i don't like the Dallas Cowboys or the Washington Redskins and definitely not the New York Giants. i don't like that I live directly next to my Apartment manager. i don't like traffic. i don't like acquiring two cases of beer that have been stored in a hot, steamy garage that are more than a year old. i don't like that i am tired all of the time. i don't like that i reach out to others as much as I do. i don't like being so far away from my extended family. i don't like where it's headed. i don't like my first week's loss in my fantasy football loss to the dirty dozen. i don't like my profession and that I am never given a chance. i don't like that Buckhorn closes at 9:00 pm. i don't like that everything is always right or left in politics. i don't like it when I can't make someone feel good around me. i don't really like dark beer, even though sometimes I drink it anyway. i don't like being so far away from my nieces. i don't like that i don't use my devotions more often. i don't like this blog entry after reading it.

The Ultimate Celebration

This was an amazing week/weekend on a multitude of levels.

Finally smiling like everything is perfect. Like my world
is turning around for the better.

I love my siblings. Seriously.
We sure know how to have a great time.

My awesome brother got married to his sweetheart Sarah.
The day was more than special. It included so many things that made
happiness so abundant throughout.

Renewed love for my family.

Pride and Love for my brother Aaron. He is
Uplifting in more ways than one.

Grandma, Son in law, Son, and Sadie. What a great
Combination.

Last week was amazing on a few different fronts.
It came with challenges. But we all overcame them
to put together a great Weekend.

The Prefestivities got a little out of hand.....

Why I Love my Brother 3

My brother has put up with a lot from his older brother over

the years and I think it might be time that I finally treat him as an peer unlike a younger brother. Ever since my brother was in 3rd or 4th grade I have called my brother by his name every time that I have seen him or confronted him. That would be fine if it was his true name Aaron L Ruff. However that is not how I refer to him. Some of you may know that I like to call my brother CHUNK. It is a name that I made up through the middle school years to sort of describe my brother, however it also coincided with the movie The Goonies, so I have to give them their due. Before going through his growth spurt, Chunk was 4' 5" or 6" and he weighed like 180lbs. The guy was stalky. I began calling him that name because I wanted my brother to get used to me saying it as a buddy, buddy name in case anyone ever said something similar in a hurtful way, it wouldn't sting as much. Long story short, Chunk went to Germany for 3 weeks, lost his baby fat and now I'm the Chunk in the family. This name has been my buddy mechanism with my brother. There are certain things that brothers tend to latch on to growing up together and this was what I kept alive for so long. It's hard to call my brother by his real name, when I have had this connection with him for so long. One day I have to grow up and actually call him by his real name (at his wedding), but for right now and the rest of the week, he's still Chunk T to me. It might even sneak out once or twice, but I only mean it in love. 3 days and counting.

One Day

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say..........
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Why I Love my Brother 2

My brother loves his family and everyone that is closest to him. I look up to him all of the time. Is an older brother supposed to do that? I'm so happy that he has given what he has to this family. I know that in the future Sarah and their family will feel the wonderful effects that my brother will bring to the table. Aaron Lewis Ruff an outstanding brother, an even better son, and the soon to be perfect husband. 4 days and counting.

Why I Love my Brother 1

A long Car ride....... en route to the U2 concert, dealing with a brother that is going through a divorce and just wants to literally kill someone; he was there to calm me down and talk things through. There for me. He has always been there for me. When I need to talk or seek counsel, he is there. Always the more mature one when dealing with life changing events, I look to him for guidance. The day that I finally found out my Dad had decided to come out, he was there to shoulder my pain. He is someone that I look up to when I need to learn how to effectively show grace to others. I mimic him. His actions in life have molded him into a great man. Something that I strive to be. Everyday. I love my brother now more than I ever have. I don't express it like I should, but I think he knows how much he means to me. This video reminds me of how amazing he is. Aaron Lewis Ruff. 5 days and counting.

Special Sight Today

So I was teaching today in Hayward and I was out at recess. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a group of students standing in the corner against the wall. They were obviously trying to keep to themselves, but I was curious to why they were just standing there at recess. To my Amazement all 8 of the students were hearing impaired. They all had cochlear implants and were being secluded by most of the other students. As I walked over to the group, the entourage that followed me grew and grew. By the time I had reached them my smile was enormously big. It's not every day that you see a (HI) class in a public school. Our conversation was short, but I was able to see how my niece will be able to adept to school in the coming years. I was in such awe. Their dialect was awesome. Kudos to Hayward Unified School District for doing at least one thing right. Starting an SDC (HI) class for students that want to be seen as normal kids in a normal setting.