My Favorite Golf Tournament

I love The Open Championship. Each year I get to watch this 4 day Major Tournament in which I was lucky enough to play a few of the courses back in 1995. I also love staying up late to watch the tournament live from 2 am on. It brings back great memories of high school golf and my trip to Scotland with my two best friends. I enjoy watching the transformation in technology from 1995 to today. Everything is so clear on the TV these days. Watching this made my mind up to go play golf the other day. 4 over on 9 holes was ok for me. I haven't played in a while, so I am grateful for that score. Here's to a fun weekend for all and rest day for me, so that I can catch up on my golf.

Tougher than anyone can interpret

After the injury, thoughts like fireflies in the night flashed my conscience, but mostly alluded capture. At times, I felt surrounded by a void in which thoughts would birth and die so fast I could not hold on to them. The trace they left unsettled me and sent my brain into a flurry to try to recapture them, resulting in neurological distress and an enormous amount of frustration, which often led to outbursts of tears and sobbing. It took many sessions of cognitive remediation and the learning and practicing of compensatory techniques to be able to retain thoughts long enough to process, organize, and articulate them. I feel original again. Like I'm myself.

 Markhbein 1991

I love Mumford.

"I keep smearing my heart all over my sleeve

Someone comes and wipes it off and takes it from me

What’s left is hardly mine, just shadow of myself

For i find i’m entwined in a battle over my health

And i can’t win, and i can’t win

What you asked just cannot be done

This mindless heart is what i’ve become

This weight on my back was just too heavy"

I'd do anything for this Lady

 7/2/1949. An Angel was born.

My mother is a woman of strength, courage,

tenderness, faith, and integrity. 

 

I hope that i've learned bits here and there from her

about how to live appropriately. 

 

 Being able to share a quiet Wednesday dinner

with her is and always will be a blessing.

I've often heard that one of the greatest attitudes is gratitude. I am a firm believer in that. Thankfulness is also a key aspect within my Mother's life that keeps her grounded. Happy (belated) Birthday, to The Best Mom that I know.

Perserverance

 

 

 

“A cousin is a ready-made friend for life.”

When Ideas Flow

I was reminded tonight how some of my best ideas come when I least expect it. Why is that? Often I put in long hard days working away at my day job and at the end of that day, my ideas flow onto a canvas. The next morning I look at the work and just can’t see that any progress has been made sometimes. It's as if I worked for hours, went to sleep, then began to take steps backward only to start all over. Its during these times that every so often I’ll think about giving up, stop painting, and do something else. Yesterday I purchased 6 new canvas'
(Aaron Bros. had a great sale).
 

So again I ask, why is that? I believe my mind, although spongelike and amazing, is still somewhat limited. My brain constantly absorbs things from the outside through our senses, combining with our own preferred judgments from the inside to create a thought or idea.  When my mind rests, for example during sleepytime, physical activities (softball), or just plain old fun, then it opens up to a larger universe - my mind amazes me sometimes. It is here that I surprise myself by conjuring new ideas that can be totally new.

 

Small Steps...

The next time you take a step,

where will you go? 

To another city,

to another relationship,

to another level?
Will you contemplate who has been there before,
or will you be grateful just to be there?
Searching for a place where the accomplishment

makes the heart grow ever so fondly.  

Take a step back now to recall
the needed steps you take now so small,
Small steps of.....
Who?
Where?
When? 

JR

7/7