what we need is here

Abandon,
as in love or sleep, 

holds them to their way

clear in the ancient faith

what we need is here.

And we pray, not
for new earth or heaven

 but to be quiet in heart 

and in eye clear. 

What we need is here.

In Transition

Feels so good to paint again. 

It's like starting all over.

I can't wait to do more.

Very addicting.

Benefits of Family.

Sometimes its good to have a good family

base around you when in times of trouble

and hardship. They can be there for you when

you need it the most, and just when you need

a most important pick me up. Family comes in

all shapes and sizes. For me, Family is just more

than my close knit Ruff, Prinz, Anderson Family.

It spreads out much further than that. I've needed some

serious pick me ups these past few weeks.

How can you not get a instagrin from this

one? She's amazing. If I could see her every

day, my life would be so much happier. My family

is what gets me through everyday. Not sure that you know,

but I'm a friends kinda guy. I love all of my friends.

I love em.

They pick me up on the worst of days. Wine bar friends,

school teacher friends, golf friends, church friends. All of

my friends are to blame for me being so happy lately.

and this one in general.

I'm glad that I was able to come across this

piece of humble pie. Something that I don't deserve,

but I will be very selfish and not let it go.

A wonderful person that has made my life amazing lately.

Like I say to all of my friends and my students...

she's pretty legit.

So I just want to thank you all for being a friend of mine.

You make me so happy at times when its needed most.

A friends a friend forever cause the welcome will not end!

Rejuvenation

Just what I Needed

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE.

Home is whenever I'm with you.

My frail body  seeks finalization.

Can it ever have a break from the 

continuous bad luck ride? Seems as if life

never can work out for the best.Hands down

my August and September have been the best two

months in about two years.

Plus Points.

Awesome new 3rd Grade Job

Freedom to pursue other key part time jobs

Met some new people, including some ones that i really like

Pretty much September was rocking, going along

great... until last week. Insert Diabetes Type 1. 

There always has to be a sensor or something that 

pops up in my life that when my life is so happy

it decides to screw everything up. I always want

to please everyone in my life. Family wise, work wise,

friend wise. I tried to please too many lately.

Now to square one.

Finding out how to make my life accessible to work,

family, friends, without overdoing myself.Having 

You in my life has helped a lot lately, I just wanted

You to know. A great addition to help me with my stride.

Thank You.

On the road to recovery...

Turmoil within a week.

 

Never before have I had something hit me this hard

in which I could have prevented it. Exhaustion has been

building and building until finally it broke.

I push myself to be the best Jonathan that I can

be, yet sometimes I do too much. Friday night I had a wonderful 

time at dinner and the Wizard of Oz Musical. It was amazing.

We had a great time! Great, Great, Great Time! 

Then comes Saturday Morning.... 

I'm rushed to the ER in Walnut Creek.

I wasn't feeling too well, and I'm not sure why.

Come to find out my blood sugar had taken a turn for the worse.

My insulin pump was not working, therefore my medicine was not

breaking down the sugars in my body. This sent my body into Ketoacidocis. Something that any Diabetic is fearful of

losing their life to. Average Sugar levels for me is 110-160. That's perfect range for myself. Anything higher or lower could hurt my

long term outcome. When I checked into the ER, my sugars were run at 1200. That number alone sends chills into my body. It's been a long week with amazing help from my family, friends, and my work's understanding. I need to find a medium to make my life not as stressful as it is. Take a bit off so that I'm not hurting myself and the others that are in my life around me. As I type this, I still am weak, recovering from this freakish occurrence that happened last week. I'm thinking of what I can do to repay the people around me that were there for me when I most needed them. This week was a difficult one. I'm thankful for the loved ones around me. Without you.... I wouldn't be here.

Thanks.