Hardness it sets in

Sometimes its difficult to set apart the things in my life that are hard and other parts that I just tend to ignore. For instance when I come across pictures that are from my past in which strike a chord in me emotionally. Or when I hear of things that are going on presently that are just entirely mind baffling. I use this blogspot to bleed my ideas, share my positive points in life, and really just mature emotionally. It baffles me how I am growing up and maturing as others are decreasing in maturity and seem to be emotionally losing years. Sometimes, I feel that this was a good thing for me to take a break and really see where I need to be in my life in order to move forward. As I watch this video, I am remembering that I was asked not to have a U2 song as my first song at my wedding. I know it is totally off subject, but I have always felt that was a problem. I lean towards music when I am have a terrible day, week, year. As I look back at it it could have been a sign or just that really needed that song for a boost as I need it today. Trust me, if I ever hit that point in my life again where I am choosing a first song, I will speak up and make sure it's played. This blog today is just a modge podge of feelings as I get ready for work, but it's been on my mind for a while. So here's to growing up, maturing, listening to and playing U2 as often as possible.

Growth with a side of Cheeseburger

When I begin to paint, I don't know what I am going
to put on the canvas. I look at the person I am creating for
and I try to best emulate what he or she represent with the oil
I am laying out for them.

The years or months or days that I know my "friends"
depicts how much information I am able to indulge into
their masterpiece (they always are in my eyes). I am able to grow
with each canvas that I complete, both artistically and emotionally
as I begin this awesome stage in my life. I love these paintings and their
meanings. In my eyes, it is a major maturation point in my life, thought process.

On a side note.
Please check out Five Guys an amazing hamburger joint
located newly in the east bay. Awesome burgers, with a choice
of additions cooked with your burger. My tummy was happy yesterday.
Have a great Tuesday everyone.

Rebuilding our Stained Purity

He who loves purity of their heart and speaks gracefully is the King's friend.

Blessed are the pure in heart

Purity with our actions portrays the way we utilize our heart

Purity in heart is everything.

"Purity of Heart" Creation

Thanks Aaron for the brother time and Susannah for the inspiration.

Some great times in 2011 so far........

I've had a resurgence of faith and
hope and peace within me
so far in the year 2011.

My friends are awesome.
I couldn't make my life be as sane and likable
without them by my side.
They are spread throughout the country
but I thank each and every one of you for your love.

It's been a tough start to 2011 for different reasons.
I guess I needed to grow up at some point in my life.
Boy, did I do that. At least I think I think I took a huge step in
accomplishing that.

I enjoy inspiration. Few and far between, I don't discriminate.
I enjoy the inspiration however it comes.

Smiles get me through the week, even that sounds creepy, but it's true.

Did I mention that I love my friends. They support
me in every way. It makes my heart happy.

I love the new addition to my family. It came at a perfect time
so that our family could rejoice in awesome times.

on a side note.......
Did I mention that I love sunglasses and Golf.
They go really well together

I enjoy painting and putting my thoughts and ideas on Canvas.
I grow with each piece that I complete.

I love my smile.
Its gotten me through all my B.S. that I've been through...

By the way I've come to love happy hour.
Like I said I don't discriminate.

Art is passion.
I've finally figured why my sisters heart is at peace
when in the studio. I am at peace when creating for others.

Branching out is my new goal. Opening up to
whatever is out there.

Here's to more of the smiles in 2011.
Thanks for the good times everyone.
I needed it.

Growing Up

I remember how my mom would sing me my favorite song when
I was needing some motivation especially a song she made up just for me,
especially on days when I had gotten into trouble or was feeling sad.
As many of you know I am not a very mean person and I hate confrontation.
Tomorrow will be very difficult for me. I would like to take all of the teachings and lessons I have learned growing up and just try to be an example for Christ through my actions. I'm sure that I will be singing my song throughout the proceedings in my head,
just to remind me of how my Mom always taught me to be.
Be gracious to others and treat them how you would want to be treated.
If I can follow through with that tomorrow, I will have a lot of JOY
in my Heart.

Jonathan, Jonathan Eric Ruff,

you are my great big boy,

you to laugh and play and sing,

and have a lot of joy.

Jonathan, Jonathan Eric Ruff,

you are my first born son,

and i would not replace you

with any other one.

A few quotes that I've been pondering about lately....

Isn't it great when things come full circle?

Though, it may be the hardest thing to do,

we all must learn to let go..

"I'll be there to comfort you,

Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on.

...Just call my name and I'll be there"



Simply live life..day by day and let the pieces fall in place.

Have a Happy Tuesday
as I root on my boys in Red, Man United
while they battle in the Champions league
against Schalke 04!