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Have a Wonderful Wednesday Everyone.

Kindness

Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel your life get handed to you as it were ending in a quick abyss
What you worked so hard for, strive for, loved for
what you gave every ounce of your heart so graciously
all this must go
so you know you may finally realize in your heart
the true definition and spectrum
of kindness.

Before you learn the entire spectrum of kindness,
you must live in a battlefield of angst and pretentious living
You must see how this could affect you,
how your life was being affected by a long journey
of lies and incomplete dreams.

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice from inside cries effervescently
and then makes the light arrive when your soul begins to sing.

Then it is only kindness that is the only thing you need in your life
only kindness that makes the day feel so much more brighter
Kindness is what I've been looking for, kindness is what I've missed.


JR 3/22

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(HAPPY)NESS

Birthdays staying Fun even in the situation

March 9th.

A day that comes with mixed emotions every year. I go into the month of March always pumped to celebrate the day and party with happiness entailed. For some reason though it never happens. I think I blow it up, epic style with the days leading up to my birthday week and for some reason all of the planning for the week goes away silently. I can't complain though. This year I had a great time with friends and family on numerous days within the week. Maybe it's because I'm a huge fan of the celebration of the day... I really don't know. I love my visit from my friend Savannah on Sunday and Monday. It was really great to see her and catch up on her new life in the Pacific Northwest. My bi weekly call to my friends in SoCal was amazing while in addition I received a video text from my friend Saley with his son rocking out to Mumford and Sons. My friends at the Wine Bar and Patrick Davids made the week very inviting with cards and great fellowship. My family made the tail end of birthday week so much fun with a dinner including cheesesteaks and ice cream cake with mint chip ice cream (my favorite). The thing is I look forward to these small celebrations from time to time because I need that happiness. I've looked forward to this week for a while. I still feel bummed out a bit after the week ended. It could have been the text message from my Dad on the 8th (not my birthday) or the effects from my heart wrenching, ongoing divorce that I am in. I really don't know. But, I take every day with a smile. I try to at least. I guess until next year. Here's to you March 9th. I really do like you... Even in the current situation.

PJ time with my favorite

What makes a birthday great?

Much needed Smiles from Me

Fellowship with Family

Ice Cream Cake with Squiggly Candles

Birthday Cards

CheeseSteaks With the Family

Assistance from my buddy

Silly Faces

Smiling Faces

"Do I really have to do this" Faces

Faces that I love

I want to be lost again

Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
It's been an awful long time
my heart needed time to heal.
If its only for a few moments
I thank you for the time spent.
I want to be lost again.
Courage.
Desire.
Integrity.
Compassion.
Love.

J.R.
3/7/11