What I am watching at the moment

Result of a charred Childhood

My entire life has consisted of a creation of a whacked out Vocabulary. Whether it is is childish to some or awkward to others, I have chosen to use certain words, phrases in my strong sentence structure. I don't know where these words are formed or how they come about, but they just fit into my daily dialect. I think most of it comes from the lack of my use of Swear words, since I was young. Lewis Albert jr. used to say words under his breath when he tended to get mad at the family and I always used to get riled up about that. My favorite was when he used to say instead of "Gdamnit" he would violently throw out a "Dagnabit". Maybe that's where this crazy deal came up with making stupid words up. I try to keep my language under wraps, however sometimes there is those times when I just have to let it out. Please remind me if I left any out.

Mother Freak
Samacooks
Cookalala
Jezebel
Harriet Winslow
Hairy
Satchel
Fruitshack
Chauncey Billups

I know there are a ton more, but just thinking of these few, makes me laugh at what an idiot I must sound like when I am talking to people in conversation. Here's to many more years of me growing up and me trying to grow towards a better vocabulary and not sound like I'm 18 again.

Love

Yeah, we'll shine like stars in the summer night

We'll shine like stars in the winter night

One heart, one hope, one love

With or without you ...

Seriously?

Every day that I was in my relationship with miss lagrant I knew that I had a fighting chance to make it work. There were many times that specific things were done in spite just to get a reaction out of me to make me give up on my marriage. As some of you know I have been getting into the joy of collecting wine for the past 3 or 4 years now and I have built up quite a collection. Last November I was bartending a party and the client came up to me and thanked me for my diligent work at his company party. He then went into his vast wine cellar and brought me a bottle of 1995 Silver Oak Cabernet. I was in shock when he gave it to me because the bottle was valued at about 250$ since it was limited addition. 3 weeks later I was bartending another party that went until 2:00 a.m. Upon arriving home I noticed that my Silver Oak had been uncorked through the foil with no wine left in the bottle and two glasses left on the counter half full. It was a stab to the heart, meant to sting. Forward to tonight. Working very hard, tired, just want to come home. And I get a text. "Is that bottle in the fridge very expensive?" I replied, "don't joke with me" "please tell me you did not uncork that" It had happened again. 1999 Silver Oak meant for someone...... uncorked, drunk and disposed of. It just makes me say..... Seriously. I have about 200 other bottles around. And you chose that one. Seriously. Just add it on to the tab of My Life Sucks.

Roller Coaster equalling points of joy

Do you ever feel like life is a constant roller coaster, with drops and turns with it leaving you wondering what will come next? This past year has been a serious roller coaster. I'm talking The Grizzly at the former Great America. Old and rickety making turns at 60 mph thinking you could die around the next bend. I'm learning to deal with my new life, but in the mean time there are many things to be joyful about. I was searching the internet to find quotes depicting points of joy. I came across a few that were quite cheesy and didn't seem too proper considering the sentiment that it was trying to portray. Then I came across this quote by Luciano Pavarotti. What he says is quite true.

"For me, music making is the most joyful activity
possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion."



So in other words I can use his guidance to write about my emotion. Let me try it out.

1. For me, Painting is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

2. For me, conversing, hanging out, and getting advice from my friends is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

3. For me, golfing is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

4. For me, Singing Karaoke is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

5. For me, playing with my nieces is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

6. For me, Teaching in any capacity is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

7. For me, celebrating life is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

8. For me, writing on this blog is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

9. For me, praising Jesus is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

10. For me, being Jonathan is the most joyful activity possible, the most perfect expression of any emotion.

Watching this makes me miss my job

Just what you need

Back when I was in middle school I used to adore my older sister Susannah. She had the cool name Siouxzie, the cool clothes, and always had the coolest friends. The thing that I was always jealous of was that she had the best mix tapes. Yes you heard me correct. Mix TAPES. She hadn't hit the cd age yet, however it was still so cool to me. I used to steal my sisters tapes all of the time, because of #1. the way that they sounded #2. The way that they looked (paper and artwork inside the tape itself) and #3. the thought of how cool it would make me look just by creating one. Fast forward a lot of years. I have been making amazing mixes for people for a while (I'm not gonna lie, they are pretty awesome). However I've stopped lately because they have lost the meaning that I have meant them to feel. This past week. I created something that just flows. Thought I'd share with you and if you like you could create this for yourself. Let me know what you think.......


Animal (ACOUSTIC LIVE!!!) 4:03 Neon Trees
Crossfire 4:17 Brandon Flowers
Exalted (Yahweh) 5:51 Chris Tomlin
Eyes As Candles 4:08 Passion Pit
Little Secrets 3:59 Passion Pit
Love Lost 3:36 The Temper Trap
On Melancholy Hill 3:00 Gorillaz
Paparazzi 3:19 Making April
Somewhere Over The Rainbow 4:32 Tori Amos
Sweet Disposition 3:54 The Temper Trap
Vanilla Twilight 3:52 Owl City
The Cave 3:38 Mumford and Sons
White Blank Page 4:14 Mumford and Sons
1983 3:43 Neon Trees